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for the first time in two years.........i felt....insecure.
I dont' know what to bring about this subject or how to develop it. But, i've been feeling like..........nothing lately. like, literally NOTHING. No happiness, sadness, tears, anger. ETC ETC ETC feels monotonous, i used to make abortion jokes in front of girls who had an accident in bed. I used to look people arrogantly and make them feel stupidly inferior to me. I used to do so much, lately i haven't been able to succeed. It just feels like nothing. My self-esteem has dropped to an interesting level..................not melancholy. Simply, inertia............ i actually cried, around 6 months ago, for a.......unknown reason. my emotions became deadened after that. I dont' know why, nor do i seem to have the curiosity to find out. I see people, i see them talk, worry about each other, do certain things and the such. I see people smiling at me, others frowning, i see them falling in love, and getting constantly pushed into the "friend/gay zone" yet i manage to make contact with the opposite sex. I seem to feel neutral, completely to the idea of love, friendship, etc. I laugh out of habit, don't find anything funny. I literally stood on a hill, with an insane breeze/wind, blowing my face, and i just stared at the sky. My mind was blank, i felt..........free........ so........nothing : | |
obligatory cool story bro
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Wait a minute, you're gay? :eek:
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Anytime
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Its a phase.
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I was placing him somewhere around... 16. A "special" 16.
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Who, kyeruu? He's some kind of teacher, actually...
Anyways, it sounds to me like the way I felt when I went through my "There is nothing" phase. Yeah, it's just a phase. I suggest buying a DVD of a childhood favorite show, something to find your "roots", I guess. Start over. If your personalty broke, then build a new one! If you liked your old one, then build the new one off what built the original! |
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Write a list of things to do, and do them. Not just a list, but a list of important things. Life changing things.
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.......You mean, nothing?
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No, I mean something.
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some psychologist said i was a sociopath? makes me feel a bit better knowing i'm above a lot of people.
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By some psychologist, do you mean... the internet?
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Lol, internet. That's a myth, and you know it, Grav.
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Kyerru... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUwrZqhrtY8 You're welcome. |
He'd be less depressed if he wasn't an emo kid. :rolleyes:
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