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kyeruu 2010-04-22 08:51 PM

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for the first time in two years.........i felt....insecure.


I dont' know what to bring about this subject or how to develop it.

But, i've been feeling like..........nothing lately.

like, literally NOTHING.

No happiness, sadness, tears, anger. ETC ETC ETC

feels monotonous, i used to make abortion jokes in front of girls who had an accident in bed.

I used to look people arrogantly and make them feel stupidly inferior to me.

I used to do so much, lately i haven't been able to succeed.

It just feels like nothing. My self-esteem has dropped to an interesting level..................not melancholy.

Simply, inertia............

i actually cried, around 6 months ago, for a.......unknown reason.

my emotions became deadened after that. I dont' know why, nor do i seem to have the curiosity to find out.


I see people, i see them talk, worry about each other, do certain things and the such.

I see people smiling at me, others frowning, i see them falling in love, and getting constantly pushed into the "friend/gay zone" yet i manage to make contact with the opposite sex.

I seem to feel neutral, completely to the idea of love, friendship, etc.

I laugh out of habit, don't find anything funny. I literally stood on a hill, with an insane breeze/wind, blowing my face, and i just stared at the sky.

My mind was blank, i felt..........free........

so........nothing : |

Grav 2010-04-22 10:14 PM

obligatory cool story bro

Skurai 2010-04-24 09:55 AM

Wait a minute, you're gay? :eek:

kyeruu 2010-04-24 03:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Grav (Post 687864)
obligatory cool story bro

Thanks for being a tool grav, much appreciated.

Grav 2010-04-24 07:22 PM

Anytime

!King_Amazon! 2010-04-24 07:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by kyeruu (Post 687860)
for the first time in two years.........i felt....insecure.


I dont' know what to bring about this subject or how to develop it.

But, i've been feeling like..........nothing lately.

like, literally NOTHING.

No happiness, sadness, tears, anger. ETC ETC ETC

feels monotonous, i used to make abortion jokes in front of girls who had an accident in bed.

I used to look people arrogantly and make them feel stupidly inferior to me.

I used to do so much, lately i haven't been able to succeed.

It just feels like nothing. My self-esteem has dropped to an interesting level..................not melancholy.

Simply, inertia............

i actually cried, around 6 months ago, for a.......unknown reason.

my emotions became deadened after that. I dont' know why, nor do i seem to have the curiosity to find out.


I see people, i see them talk, worry about each other, do certain things and the such.

I see people smiling at me, others frowning, i see them falling in love, and getting constantly pushed into the "friend/gay zone" yet i manage to make contact with the opposite sex.

I seem to feel neutral, completely to the idea of love, friendship, etc.

I laugh out of habit, don't find anything funny. I literally stood on a hill, with an insane breeze/wind, blowing my face, and i just stared at the sky.

My mind was blank, i felt..........free........

so........nothing : |

http://whatthebeans.files.wordpress.com/2009/04/emo.jpg

Hayduke 2010-04-24 08:32 PM

Its a phase.


Age?

Skurai 2010-04-24 11:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Hayduke (Post 687925)
Age?

Eight and up. I've never seen a kid younger than that who fit into a subculture of any kind.

Hayduke 2010-04-25 12:24 PM

I was placing him somewhere around... 16. A "special" 16.

Skurai 2010-04-25 08:16 PM

Who, kyeruu? He's some kind of teacher, actually...
Anyways, it sounds to me like the way I felt when I went through my "There is nothing" phase. Yeah, it's just a phase. I suggest buying a DVD of a childhood favorite show, something to find your "roots", I guess. Start over. If your personalty broke, then build a new one! If you liked your old one, then build the new one off what built the original!

kyeruu 2010-05-01 10:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by !King_Amazon! (Post 687924)

What part of "nothing" did you not get?

!King_Amazon! 2010-05-02 11:00 AM

BORKED

Skurai 2010-05-02 07:09 PM

Write a list of things to do, and do them. Not just a list, but a list of important things. Life changing things.

kyeruu 2010-05-04 10:30 PM

.......You mean, nothing?

Skurai 2010-05-09 11:32 AM

No, I mean something.

kyeruu 2010-05-14 12:13 PM

some psychologist said i was a sociopath? makes me feel a bit better knowing i'm above a lot of people.

Grav 2010-05-14 09:42 PM

By some psychologist, do you mean... the internet?

Skurai 2010-05-16 08:24 PM

Lol, internet. That's a myth, and you know it, Grav.

Mutant Couch 2010-05-26 03:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by !King_Amazon! (Post 687924)

I'll never understand how they all seem to run out of hair dye and only have enough for a patch or two. Also, he would be less depressed if he learned to match that patch with his eye makeup.


Kyerru... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUwrZqhrtY8

You're welcome.

Skurai 2010-05-28 11:30 PM

He'd be less depressed if he wasn't an emo kid. :rolleyes:


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