wow, thats the kinda thing, like your other stuff that sorta makes me think about my life, what it would be like if I vanished for a few weeks. I'm sure a lot of people around here do, but i feel like im not what I could be, im not doing enough. It makes me feel like i am a failure because i am not living up to my potential. wow its late. Im still young, but i think i feel this way because im so damn stubborn. I think i feel my ideals and beliefs are are so right, and that some people are just plain wrong, or acting capricously on what knowledge they think they have about life (i cant stand people smoking and drinking and having "relations" at such young ages, im only 16). In the end i end up thinking, "I am just like everyone else, I am just too stubborn to admit it."