I just didn't want her to be my first love. I wanted her to be my only love. I have no doubt in my mind that if we met when we were say.. 25, we would have been married by now. She made me so happy every second I was with her. Sometimes I'd wake up and think, "Holy shit, I'm Jacqui's boyfriend!" God, this sucks.

We wouldn't have divorced either - she's totally against it. If we say our vows, divorce isn't an option. My parents got divorced so I'm not really gung-ho about it, either.