Hyperventilation...tension...excitement

Okay! Been a while since I've really posted anything "major". But here we go!

I've been doing rehearsals for Romeo and Juliet for the past 2 months, which has been going pretty fucking good, if I say so for myself. But we still have people who aren't completely off book, people who STILL don't know their goddamn fights, and people who are just in the "I don't give a flippin' shit" mood.

Despite all that, it's been really fun, despite totally fucking up my sleeping schedule. But now the actual show IS coming up. I'm excited and nervous. But the problem is, I'm feeling stressed with school, work, and theater. It's making me sick, which isn't a good thing. So, I'm merely hoping for that last part to clear up.

In the mean time, I'm having a lot of fun drama run in life. Got a new guy. Had a confrontation with the ex. Found out something that nearly crippled relationship with said new guy. Got worried when he went to the hospital (luckily, he got to come home within an hour, so that took a load off my thoughts). Still got pain in my jaw. I feel like I'm going to explode whenever someone starts complaining about their lives and places oh so much importance on it.

Yeah...stress is getting to me o.o;; I've already tried out for ANOTHER play. If I get in, I'll be in the same situation. There's also the fact that I'm scrambling about to get testing done for college. I'm running like a chicken with my head cut off to plan out my graduation WEEK. Yes, week, not weekend. Long story not worth going over right now. Involves redneck dad meeting prospective mate o.o But going on, I'm really feeling stressed right now. I'm not a smoker, but I see cigs and I want to just grab them and light them up to see if it'll curb my stress. Nothing seems to relieve it and it seems to pile up more.

Well...that's the end of that. Comments, thoughts, questions, etc.?

Who's the guy? Is he nice? What was the problem with him?

Try taking hot baths at night if you can? Possible to have a drink or two before sleeping? It helps.

The new guy is named John. Very, very nice. And the situation is one I wish not to really discuss in public.

This isn't really "public," but ok.

Actually, you're right o.o

I bet the guy is gay.

I should be a detective.

Though what I say might be too late... It seems people have so much worry upon their mind, they think far too much and every complexity starts to fall in. Try to relax a bit, but saying that won't help you... Try looking at the clouds, try looking at flowers or the areas outside. Take a time out to take a calm walk in the park or watch children play. Don't force yourself to ignore a thought, but don't focus on it.

Aknowledge that a thought has passed by you, but just let it slide off without thinking about it in depth. Sure, you might lose some time, but it'll loosen you up a bit, or read a fine book, listen to some calming music, just clear your mind, sing a bit, take a nice relaxing hot bath, eat something sweet like pancakes or something with some butter and maple syrup.

Experience some simple pleasures and forget about your common worries temporarily, stop thinking about them altogether until after the moment of light bliss or joy is done, then go back to worrying. Even if you worry all the time, it won't change anything, so what best is to try and let things go when you can and if you've got a lot of work, don't think that a small moment of rest will do you bad, often enough one can think better when one is fresh and relaxed rather then stressed and ready to faint.

I would talk a bit more, but I believe I posted far more then enough, sorry for taking so much of your time.