Fate

Anyway, I sometimes have a hard time believing in free choice. Quite often, the events in my life seem to fall perfectly into place. Nothing in my deranged life seems truly ramdom, or based on statistics in any way. I don't know, maybe the human race in general is more predictable than it should be.

It seems to me, that often when something happens in my life, I seem to think of an outcome and a reason why that event could be extremely pivotal. For instance, if I am sitting in the car, riding around with my little brother and family, something said on the radio could spark some huge chain of events. Next time something like this happens, I will post an example, because it is kind of hard to explain... It makes me feel kind of crazy... but hey, I am.

I believe in Fate. But there are a set of rules, and hundreds of thousands of variables that play along in everybody's lives.

Sometimes I'll just lose my sense of reality and stare into space, I just think alot to myself. I've been gone for a little while from here, just thinking about life. I've been in my room for all this time, obsessing on my life. Everything in my life, I don't know why, but I can feel the world around my presence starting to warp. This is not a good thing, but I can feel the world that I know in my perspective going to hell, I just believe most of us will die sooner than later. I don't know, maybe I need to see a psychologist.