fuck my life

Sorry to hear talented. Take the time to remember Court and all the good times you had. Then make sure that the time you spend with your other friend is meaningful. IT something that you will never like or accept, but this is life. Somebody once told me (a religious figure) that when people die young, it is because god needs them in one way or another. Whether you believe that or not, its just something to help people cope. If you need to talk, feel free here or over at facebook.