What can I do?

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose.

Well, lets not label me (people call me Goth). I am Christopher. I dress in black (its what I feel comfortable in. And I have my own style, not stealing from anyone in cloths. Make my own braclets, and crap), and I believe in Daemons, and hell. And I'm pretty fucked up in the head. I've been through this whole Daemon shit, I've been into magic. And I'm about to go into it again. I once worshiped the devil, and talked to my Daemon. I have my Daemon name carved into my skin (funny, it wasn't even deep, but its still clear as day). I uhm, have friends support telling me, they actually felt, and saw this Daemon spirit. Yes, I believe in Satan. I use to have this Daemon that tried to kill me. Thats why I left Zelaron, to much depressed states. Tried to kill myself twice. Thought about it a lot.

Holy shit?