Well.. I feel shitty again.

No no, there is no other reason. I'm sure of it. We've had many problems in the past but worked them out and it made us even stronger. Her mom and I were really cool together and I'm the only boyfriend she has had that her dad has even held a conversation with. We had a bunch of inside jokes and shit, we were all on friendly terms. I know it wasn't another guy because she would never do that to me. I know that she loves/loved me VERY VERY much and I know she still does at this very moment.

That is the one and only reason that she would even consider breaking up with me over. Oh well, I guess I've already moved on a little considering I have a date Saturday night. It's still really hard, though. I miss her like crazy.

break-ups always are. dont neglect your date on Sat or you might not get another shot with her ... go out and have fuckin good ass time.

Is this the stoner girl? If so, get stoned, go out and have a fuckin good ass time.

In my opinion, that date is a little pre-emptive... Should have waited a little.. Everyone is different though..

In my opinion, that date is a little pre-emptive... Should have waited a little.. Everyone is different though..

yeah i thought the same thing, thats why i advised to pay a lot of attention to her and whatever you do, for God's sakes do not blab on about your ex. Your probably know, but DONT DO IT!

Seriously, Thanatos, you need to hold off on that stoner chick. Not as much for your sake, but more for hers. You've already identified her as a "rebound chick" and that's automatically going to skew your impression of your time with her. She'll become little more than your instrument of revenge, and that's not a very kind thing to make someone into. I know that you're not a bad guy, but you're starting down a path that could lead to you doing bad things. In the end, this stoner chick is most likely going to end up getting hurt and your ex is going to end up getting hurt as well. What kind of toll do you think that will take on your conscience? Is it really worth it?

I'm not trying to lecture you, but I genuinely think it's a bad idea to go jumping into another girl so quickly after such a nasty event. It will negatively taint your experiences with her and it will end up damaging the both of you. I've done it before, and I can attest to how miserable an experience it can be. Please, for your own peace of mind, think this through a little more carefully. You might not care if you hurt yourself during this process, but do you really want to drag someone else into your misery as well?

I've thought a lot about my whole situation today. We have first period together and didn't say a word.. I haven't talked to her since the break up. I feel like a total ass. I said some things Sunday night that I'll never be able to forget. I was so fucking mean to her and I feel horrible about it. I realize now that I should have never called the stoner chick so quick. We're supposed to go out Saturday night on a date, but I'm going to call her in a few and invite her to a party on Saturday. So, it's really not a date because there will be a lot of people, but I still feel guilty.

Anyway, I tried calling her cell after school today numerous times. She doesn't pick up and she isn't home. I donno what to do. Bleh, I'm real confused. Love shouldn't be this hard.