The walls are closing in on me.

Yeah.

This is always a tough decision, I mean, taking advice from a 13 year old might not seem very... whats the word im looking for... 'sane' but here goes.

Relationships can be hard. They can be tough. You can also find a girl that is in your exact place. If the person you go out with understands what you feel, she will know (hopefully) to tell you off the bat, that its probabaly not gonna work out. Girlfriends should understand things just as easily as guys understand some things. If my future girlfriend tells me she really doesnt want to get hurt, and that shes been cheated on and stuff, then just for her sake, i would give her special attention. Whatever works. My friends girlfriends parents have been together since they were 14 years old, I know finding a 'soul mate' can happen in any time of your life, after finding this out. Just find a sensitive girl, somebody that wants you for who you are, and will work with you to make it work-out. Also, try this

"did you buy any tickets"

then she says

"tickets?"

then you say "to the show...."

"What show" she says

then you say

"The gun show, grrrrrrr" and flex your left and right beasts as crazily as you can.