Life's Calling?

Lately I've been finding myself panicing at random moments with the urge to just...get away. To move away, get away from everyone I know.

My life is certainly not turning out like I had hoped it would when I was younger...

What do you think went awry?

I could say I'm not sure, but...I think part of it is because of my lack of putting myself out there when it comes to dating. That's not the only reason, and I'm unsure about the rest.

I don't even honestly care about anyone else in my life to an extent. Like I feel like I need to just have total control over what's going on and I need to make a change happen, and it needs to happen soon because this current path I am on is a garbage shithole to nowhere, and it's coming fast to a point where I won't be able to change anything.

I could say I'm not sure, but...I think part of it is because of my lack of putting myself out there when it comes to dating. That's not the only reason, and I'm unsure about the rest.

Have you been able to figure out exactly why you keep yourself inside a shell, for example? What is holding you back from being more outgoing?